Dreams of Lightning
I look at my self in all the layers of my humanity
I ache for a realness that i sometimes taste
I plead with my self, "Jai, wake up... wake up now"
Sometimes i feel like a glimmer in the shadows
Trying so hard to ignite
The more i feel that fire of joy
The more i feel the cold steel of my sleep
In my deepest fears
I am terrified of that heavy slumber
When I am dragged under by forgetfulness
Numbed by my shame
Lost in the forest of ghosts
I am reminded of aliveness
I want to thank every artist
Every poet
Every lover
Every child
Every animal
Every person living from the heart
I need you
I need you so much
My sleep is broken by flashes of freedom
You remind me
Every small flash of light
Illuminates
Gratitude is the place I was looking for all along.
The Hungry Fox
Lucid dreamer
awake in a rolling river
something reminds me
you cannot be here
but here you are
The colors sigh
stretch out there watercolor limbs
together
underwater
still sleeping
Tonight i heard you singing
quiet and beautiful
so beautiful i cried
Love is a flower
held up to the sun
a thousand shades
of you and me
In another dream
i lost a friend
a lover
a sister
i am lucid but not dreaming
she protects herself
like i am an ice storm
an entire wasteland of winter
she nails up the windows
bolts the doors
keeps the fire hot and raging
pulls the phone from the wall
and sits
drinking tea
trying not to think of us
In my dream
i watch a house in the forest
with vines and dripping memories
clinging to its walls
through widening cracks in aging wood
i see your shadow
i know you are happy this way
i know your heart is soft
i know i have become a burden to you
so i wait like a hurt and hungry fox
hoping for a taste of our love
